Monday, November 01, 2004
| damn... sembreak's sooooo boring! or maybe I'M boring??? hala! cannot be! waaaa.... i wanna go out, i'm just no homebody. it's like this, i stay home and the next thing i know, i'm munching on junkfood. damn! all that hard work just goes down the drain in a few hours! agghhhh.... i'm so frustrated! and it's like no one's around. it's like a ghost town. i mean, there's no one on YM, none of my friends are like txtin/calling, nobody's home. i guess the next time i'll be seeing people is this wednesday. i can't wait til wednesday! whenever i stay home, it's a disaster. i don't think i'll ever be able to co-exist with my family. it's just a freakin war zone! am i that pathetic??? aghhh.... change topic....
tAkOt Ka Na Ba??? what do i fear most? i am most afraid to be alone. i mean i can sleep alone, live alone, shop alone... but you know, the 'alone' that's lonely, depressing. the 'alone' with no friends, no one to lean on, no one who'll back you up. i guess that's why i'm so k.s.p.... haha i want people to notice me... in a good way. it's a good feeling when you're being recognized for who you are, when people appreciate you. hehe and boy am i thankful for my friends, cause at least they recognize the real me, they acknowledge my accomplishments. but sometimes i'm too paranoid. a little hitch and i start doubting them, start to come up with suspicions that they're mad at me, that i did something wrong and they didn't tell me again. hay... this is getting depressing... tama na nga... belated happy halloween nlng guys! kisses... mwah! ;) |