The planet Earth -- vast, dangerous, crazy. There are probably more words to describe the place where we evolve, but that's basically what's stuck in my head right now. Why?

I can't help but think of the future that lies ahead of me. Will i have one? Maybe, if the Lord decides not to take me away yet. As of this moment though, I am just savouring this instance where I can dream about what might happen next.

I have roughly two months before I bid farewell the place i call my second home -- and it scares the shit out of me. It shouldn't be like this considering I've spent almost 13 agonizing & painful years in the campus of SJCS. Believe me, a lot of people who study here can't wait to escape the toture. I'm one of the lucky ones who've barely survived. But seeing the same faces, same green & white color scheme, same H2O-less restrooms for (again) 13 years kind of makes things different. I'm gonna miss it, you know. And I think -- correction -- I believe that SJCS's partly to blame why I'm afraid of life after high school. How in the world will I survive COLLEGE??? *dan, dan, dan, dan.... cue lightning*

As a Judenite, you are essentially this -- sheltered. I never knew what a soiree was until I read an article about it in a magazine two years ago, I think. (Thank you Candy!) When we're in a party and we don't know anybody, the word "socialize" is not in our vocabulary. We basically just sit in one corner and try not to look stupid. There are a few lucky ones that do know how to get around, but sad to say, I am not one of them. I am only ma-PR when I'm with somebody I know. It's 2005, I'm 17 & boy, am I a shame. I should definitely change, dammit! Especially now that I'm pretty sure that my parents are going to enroll me in Ateneo even if I am a Green Archer at heart. Ateneo's Judenite population is fairly minute, so, yes, I am scared. Scared that I might not be able to make new friends. Scared that i won't be able to survive.

The thrillseeker in me though tells me that it's just another rollercoaster. And i heart rollercoasters! wehehe I know that God will not forget me. And at least I'll be able to broaden my circle of friends. (Friendster = heart) Things may never go as planned, but they all happen for a reason. So even if the planet Earth may be vast, dangerous & crazy, I might as well deal with it. It's what's making my life a little bit more colorful every single day that I get to wake-up to the sounds of my alarm clock & Yaya's constant bickering as I tell her, "Sige na... five minutes pa...please...."