Monday, October 03, 2005
no matter what you say, it'll always be that way.
*beware: long post*
Sir RJ's class last saturday was in line with this idea. He gave us, as he said himself:
3 min to think
2 min to expound
"
Madalas masaya ako, pero shit ang buhay kapag..."
"Most of the time I'm happy, but life can really suck when..."
I was having a hard time thinking of what to say. Simply put, i stink when it comes to extemporaneous speech. As expected, my grade in my Fil class' extempo speech was pretty low... haha Anyhoo... yeah... i stink at extempo speeches. Little did i know that i would have something for the speech later on in the day.
Hell Week is here in UA&P. Its not even one week, its three and im now on my second week. Tons of due papers, tons of due projects, tons of due reports and finals are just around the corner (speaking of which, my Fil finals is tomorrow... good luck tippi! woohoo! hehe). Malamang sasabihin ko na madalas masaya ako, pero shit ang buhay kapag ang raming kailangang gawin at nauubusan ka na ng oras. I could say that, its true, but what's more shitty is what happened to me over the weekend.
As i've said above, its Hell in UA&P. Last Wednesday, we had our last long test in APS and before the test started, our prof requested the leaders of each group to approach her and get the guidelines for the next report and paper. It wasn't me who stood up despite the fact that i headed all our previous reports. I was never officially called the leader so i had no right. Two of my other groupmates kept insisting on our only male groupmate to stand-up and take the guidelines. He did and with that, i assumed that he would lead our group for our last report. Things went by rather "loosely" the past week. No meetings, nothing.
I had to attend this actvity for AIESEC last Saturday pm, and it was there that i found out from another one of my blockm8s (who is also an AIESECer) that the report for APS was already on Monday. I was surprised! I honestly did not know. And i admit, that was my mistake. I did not make any initiative to ask when it was due since i was already clueless about it. Since i have work on Saturdays, my sched is rather tight. I texted all my groupmates to send their outlines by 5 pm since i was in-charge of making the PowerPoint presentation (as usual). Its not easy to make one, especially if you're the type (like me) who's very OC about it. Only two people replied, told me that they won't be able to send it by that day and apologized. Yung "leader" mismo walang reply. And things got worse when I find out from Pat that
he took the number that i researched on! I asked Pat when he told her this and she said the other day, and he was done with it already! pano na?! eh ako rin tapos na doon sa number na yun?! i also remember distinctly him asking me what number i wanted to take last thursday during Civ class, i told him number 3 and he said okay. Even Nessy remembered it, dapat kasi un ung number na kukunin nya. Since nauna na ko, she took 2a instead. I texted him again to try and clarify but he still wasn't replying. Di na ko umasa pa, i went ahead and researched on the number that was left.
Sunday comes and i wake-up to find 1 msg in my fone. it was him. he texted at around 1 am and told us to send our info by that afternoon sana so that he could finish the paper. i was pissed. so ung text ko nung saturday na dapat by 5 sana nasakin na ung mga outlines nila bale wala lang?! i texted him and asked him again what number he took. confirmed, kinuha nga niya ung number ko. and he was pretty cool bout it, sabi pa nga niya, "easy ka lang." i told him im sorry but im not in a very good mood so it'll take sometime for me to become easy. he tells me that ok, he'll take the number that was not answered, and told me na parang db, pwede namang mapagusapan. pwde nga, ang problema, ngyon lng. i told him i started researching on it na, and thanks nlng. i tried to let it go nlng.
evening comes and others still hadn't finished their researches. he was being annoying on the YM and kept asking me where my final research was. napuno na ko, sb ko sa knya, teka lng, you're making me panic so stop, i dont think ill be able to send the info early so just pls send me the paper and ill just integrate my research into it. he got pissed! grabe ah.. and kept saying things like "nung nag 3.5 tayo sa last paper sinigawan ka b namin?! nung kinuha mo almost 20 minuts ng time for reporting and left us panicking for 4 sinigawan kb namin?!" parang... huh?! ano un? i told him, kung d man nya narinig the last time, then im sorry, i admit that i made a bad paper, pero the second statement was totally alien to me... i dont recall anything like that, and besides, our prof only gives us 15 minutes to report... that didn't make any sense at all. tpos pumalit ung status nya... nkasulat: "bitch you're pushing my buttons" i cried... hehe yeah, cry baby... eh... sbra na kc akong nafrufrustrate eh... and he called me a bitch! cge, tawagin mo akong bitch, ok lng, pero sana diretso sakin, kung wala kang guts na sabhin un saking harapharapan, then dont say it at all...
a few minutes later he im's me and tells me he's done with the paper and if i dont trust him, then he'll just cross my name out from the group. the nerve! i broke down na tlga... 1st time kong umiyak ng ganun sa college.. haha tpos nag-im siya ulit... sb nya, "if you want, you can help us research on the other number, we're having a hard time." i told him, of course sarcastically, "thanks for being sensitive enough to ask me if i was busy or not, im sorry, but im still not done with my research and i still have tons of things to do." isa pa, sb nya, "so that we dont have to talk with each other tomorrow, tell me what part i need to report on, i can report on anything." uuuggghhhh.... ang yabang mo ah dude. sb ko, "kaw bahala, kaw ung leader db? decide..."
i didnt get any sleep that night... tuloy tuloy hanggng monday.
ang masakit sa ginawa is that he was:
1. very cool bout it,
2. he didnt apologize, didn't even acknowlegde my research/work,
3. he called me a bitch.
i get to school saktong 9 am for Theo, may quiz. I get to ACB and i see my blockmates walking in the lobby. ang ganda ng greeting sakin, "Tippi! No Theo and APS today!" i swear, if only there weren't any people there, i would've broken down and cried.
grabe... so yeah... life's a bitch...
