Friday, January 27, 2006
Let's Get Sentimental
Earlier, being the responsible (go ahead, laugh) daughter that I am, I taped my mom's daily dose of telenovelas and found myself watching Only You. Its one of those lovey-dovey Chinovelas that Filipinos (namely my mom, haha, i'm so not going to get shopping money for this ;p) just can't get enough of. Call me
baduy, but it wasn't so bad. I kinda liked it, haha. But it seems that I was not spared from Sentimentality's filthy clutches.
I'm not the type of person that constantly searches for that one person who will make me all giddy like a little girl. It's not a big deal for me, and i just patiently wait. :) I don't even have a crush right now. Oh, don't get me wrong. I definitely have some boys on my list that i can proudly say to my friends that yeah, he's cute, haha. But a crush for me is whole different thing. (And a whole other blog entry, so getting back... ) Sometimes though, when life suddenly bombards you with signs of this thing called love, it's not that hard for it to become the only thing you think about for the rest of the day or dreadfully, days.
Life
can be cruel. I have tons of guys friends who I'm very close to, but I've been single eversince I could remember. My first kiss? I don't even remember it. Thanks (?!) to cameras though, I will forever have that memory on paper. And can I even say that it was legit? haha! I'd like to say no. ;p It was in front of tons of people and we were forced I tell ya, forced. At the age of 3, if I may add.(My mom says he's grown into a very handsome young man though, hmmm...) So on days when my brain decides to fill itself with a mix of these memories, lines from novels I've read and scenes from movies I've watched, I start to question why. Oh lucky me, one of those days just happens to be today.
Why? Why, oh why, oh why? Why??? Is there something wrong with me? Do I, dare say, scare them away? What? What's wrong??? I know I'm not ugly, I'm a beautiful person despite my imperfections. Yes, Bettina and Becky included. So, why? Why is fate taking so much time before letting me meet
him? Is fate on a freakin' good vacation??
*sigh*
Songs from the radio aren't helping a lot.
"I'm so sick of love songs, so tired of tears.
So done with wishing you were still here.
Said I'm so sick of love songs, so sad and slow.
So why can't I turn off the radio?"
Dammit, I need a hug. :(
Gosh, being senti is hard. Damn you Chinovelas!!! hahaha, hay... I guess I'd better occupy myself with something other than these
kilig-inducing hulabaloo. Great! Sleep would be perfect then! haha ;p Well, i think that's enough venting for tonight. So wherever you may be, whoever you are, goodnight... ΓΌ
"Goodnight, goodnight. Parting is such sweet sorrow."
