Monday, February 06, 2006
A Glass of Spilled ThoughtsI've been such an emotional wreck this past few days.
Nakakapanibago.
Probably because, for awhile now, my life has been a more or less steady ride. And by steady I mean nothing new, or exciting, or front-page-worthy has happened to me for some time.
My brain has been on playback for the past week. Memories, experiences, events have been pulling strings, triggering emotions that are, frankly speaking, undesirable.
My heart is heavy. I feel like such a failure. A failure in so many ways. As a person, as a friend, as a daughter, as a sister, as a student. Though there will always be kind words of encouragement and support (that are really appreciated), I just feel like it'll take more than those things to pull me back up again.
And I find it so stupid that I feel this way. (
Ang loser
ko... hehe) I know it's wrong, but I can't stop it. Is it because I don't want to stop it? Or don't know how to stop it? I need a wake-up a call, a slap in the face. I feel lost and can't find my way back. I think I need some soul searching.
